its Monday and as usual I'm feeling pretty low, i miss pickle so much and now i am worrying about my mum she is not well and will need to go into hospital for an operation soon, i am sleeping in pickles bed tonight it helps me feel close to her, i hope she is in a talkative mood tomorrow when we have our phone call i am so looking forward to hearing her voice, i will do my best to stay positive for pickle and for nanny knowing we have so much to look forward to......